2009 in a nutshell :)
Apparently people still read my blog which is kind of funny because I almost forgot about it:) Maybe if I keep updating it I'll end up like Julie and Julia with my own movie? haha, but since I haven't updated this thing in a little over a year there is just sooo much to tell. I guess I'll start by saying that 2009 was amazing! My journey though the year was filled with so many highs and lows. In the end it was mostly highs. I was in a rut for awhile, sinking fast in the swamps of sadness, I guess you could say, and everyone around me, including myself were very afraid I wasn't going to get out.
It's not that I wasn't living my life right, I was in the aspect of I was staying true to Heavenly Father and making all the right choices, but I had lost a part of myself. My understanding my relationship with my Father in heaven wasn't clear to me. I knew he loved me, but I didn't stop to think of all his loving and very real Characteristics. I was standing still, not moving, and not making any decisions. Like I said, in a rut. It was when Elder Bednar came to The Red Mountain institute to speak that my perspective changed. The statement that stood out to me in the meeting was "The best way to receive personal revelation is to move your feet." basically, start walking and let Heavenly Father guide your path. That's what I was missing! Ever since I heard that I just started making choices. I started moving my feet and in the middle of January I ended up in Park City Utah working at a ski resort! It was amazing.
My life in Park City was one of the most revealing experiences I have ever had. I felt the Lords hand in my life more than ever before. I had to learn to rely on Him with all my heart, being so far away from friends and family. I witnessed miracles in my life daily and the Characteristics of God were beginning to show. I began to know Him and understand my role as one of His daughters. Park City was very healing for me. It was amazing to walk out and see the massive beauty created for me right outside my door. I learned that it's ok to be alone sometimes and I almost started to enjoy my alone time. I felt like in those moments I could just listen and enjoy life. My testimony was tried greatly. Park City prides itself on being one of the only cities in Utah not found by Mormons. It was found by Scandinavians who pride themselves on drinking:) The game used to be that if you could ski down Main Street, stop at every bar along the way, and could make it to the bottom without passing out, you won! I'm not sure what you won, maybe some pride I guess? Anyway, this was the mentality there. Very few members and a lot of partiers. It was so easy, being on my own, to be tempted to just go out on the town, to a bar or a club, when I had nothing else to do, because there was nothing else to do really. Another thing is I got a lot of attention from non LDS guys. Not that they were bad guys at all, but we just had different values. Their idea of fun was going out for a drink, while mine was going for a drive down to Granny's in Heber and getting an ice cream:) I went on a date with a couple of them, and we had fun, but in the end I felt empty with them. They didn't understand me or why I chose the things I did. Therefore many of my nights in Park City were spent alone in my room, watching a movie or reading. I know it sounds depressing, but it was just what I needed right then. It was so nice to get to know myself, to enjoy my own company! It gave me time to think about what I really wanted in life and what Heavenly Father wanted for me. My testimony was strengthened greatly.
I decided to move home after about 9 months. It was a great move at the perfect time! I came home ready to face the world. I found a great job that I love and I am truly enjoying my life. This past year I was healed. I came to know that I am an empowered individual with a portion of Heavenly Fathers spirit within me. My power is endless through my faith and it joys me to think of life this way. Embracing 2010 is exciting for me. I know there is so much that lies ahead of me and I'm so eager to continue to be a part of building God's kingdom here on this earth.
It's not that I wasn't living my life right, I was in the aspect of I was staying true to Heavenly Father and making all the right choices, but I had lost a part of myself. My understanding my relationship with my Father in heaven wasn't clear to me. I knew he loved me, but I didn't stop to think of all his loving and very real Characteristics. I was standing still, not moving, and not making any decisions. Like I said, in a rut. It was when Elder Bednar came to The Red Mountain institute to speak that my perspective changed. The statement that stood out to me in the meeting was "The best way to receive personal revelation is to move your feet." basically, start walking and let Heavenly Father guide your path. That's what I was missing! Ever since I heard that I just started making choices. I started moving my feet and in the middle of January I ended up in Park City Utah working at a ski resort! It was amazing.
My life in Park City was one of the most revealing experiences I have ever had. I felt the Lords hand in my life more than ever before. I had to learn to rely on Him with all my heart, being so far away from friends and family. I witnessed miracles in my life daily and the Characteristics of God were beginning to show. I began to know Him and understand my role as one of His daughters. Park City was very healing for me. It was amazing to walk out and see the massive beauty created for me right outside my door. I learned that it's ok to be alone sometimes and I almost started to enjoy my alone time. I felt like in those moments I could just listen and enjoy life. My testimony was tried greatly. Park City prides itself on being one of the only cities in Utah not found by Mormons. It was found by Scandinavians who pride themselves on drinking:) The game used to be that if you could ski down Main Street, stop at every bar along the way, and could make it to the bottom without passing out, you won! I'm not sure what you won, maybe some pride I guess? Anyway, this was the mentality there. Very few members and a lot of partiers. It was so easy, being on my own, to be tempted to just go out on the town, to a bar or a club, when I had nothing else to do, because there was nothing else to do really. Another thing is I got a lot of attention from non LDS guys. Not that they were bad guys at all, but we just had different values. Their idea of fun was going out for a drink, while mine was going for a drive down to Granny's in Heber and getting an ice cream:) I went on a date with a couple of them, and we had fun, but in the end I felt empty with them. They didn't understand me or why I chose the things I did. Therefore many of my nights in Park City were spent alone in my room, watching a movie or reading. I know it sounds depressing, but it was just what I needed right then. It was so nice to get to know myself, to enjoy my own company! It gave me time to think about what I really wanted in life and what Heavenly Father wanted for me. My testimony was strengthened greatly.
I decided to move home after about 9 months. It was a great move at the perfect time! I came home ready to face the world. I found a great job that I love and I am truly enjoying my life. This past year I was healed. I came to know that I am an empowered individual with a portion of Heavenly Fathers spirit within me. My power is endless through my faith and it joys me to think of life this way. Embracing 2010 is exciting for me. I know there is so much that lies ahead of me and I'm so eager to continue to be a part of building God's kingdom here on this earth.
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